Blog EntryThe Places You Have Come to Fear the MostJun 13, '08 11:13 PM
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After a night of vicious rainfall, all that’s left is a sea-amount of cars on the road as I swim my way home alone. “Let’s just waste time, chasing cars around our heads.”* And as if the cruel rainfall isn’t enough, I received tantamount cruelty from my driving instructor. 

 

Before I braved the streets alone, I had my first driving lessons at my driving school, Smart Driver. I have received what Lucas Scott received from Coach Whitey Durham on his first Ravens game: a ton of tongue-lashing. My D.I. was furious at just about anything. As a result, my first day at the driving school was pretty messy. And As I carefully walked home alone along the slippery road and reflected, I realized at the same time it was also my first day as a college freshman. My first day in school was really a new experience for me but I felt really lethargic as was looking back at the day I just had. Nostalgia then hits me as I recount my first days and my first rides.

 

PRE-SCHOOL WAS the moment I was introduced to a monster that swallowed me in and spit me out for a particular time frame everyday. I remember my first day in pre-school wherein it was a struggle for my parents to get me to school. They couldn’t blame me because it was the first time I would be in an uncharted place without them. But of course, things turned out pretty well and my pre-school days are memories I treasure up to now. It was also about the same time I rode my first bike. I developed bruises along the way but later on, I was with the boys around the village we became the suburban biker wannabes in Wild Hogs. We would usually go as fast as we could, hit the breaks, strike a pose and on-lookers wouldn’t even know what hit them.

 

GRADE SCHOOL WAS my first experience at a really big school. My first day was indeed different from pre-school as I was wailing no more and my parents found it easier to dispose me. After the last first day kiss I had from my mom, looked around the dropping off area and realized that kids my age were going through the same thing in a different fashion. Some, after three years in pre-school were still crying, some bid their ‘rents good bye and walked on confidently, some had no parents with them, some didn’t want to go to school and some almost weren’t able to go to school because of their parents’ snake arms wrapped around them. G.S. was also about the same time I had my first school bus ride. At first I was afraid of the upperclassmen who threw their weight around the bus. Surprisingly, I never had any traumatic experience as a bus rider. In fact, I’ve made some good friends and I’m still in contact with my busmates up to now.

 

HIGH SCHOOL WAS the best ride of my life so far. Of course, my parents weren’t there anymore to bid me farewell on my first day. High School had all the factions new kids would be afraid of-geeks, jocks rebels etc.  And on the first day, I’ve meet some familiar faces, new ones and ones that I couldn’t remember on the first day. But, after four years of High School, I wasn’t able to see all the faces I saw on the first day anymore. Because All I saw was one-a sea of happy faces. High School was also about the same time I learned how to commute. Scared was an understatement when I had my first jeepney ride.  I was constantly on the look for the Hollow man that would stab me in the back or snatch my mobile phone. Hollow man remained unseen up to now just I am still commuting going to and coming home from school.

 

COLLEGE … the time I had a fun, interesting yet tiring first day a freshman and also the time I had a sucky first driving lessons session.

 

LIFE … (hints experience of first day at work and experience of having a car)

 

A mentor once told me, the things that we fear are False Evidences Appearing to be Real.  Do not be fearless, be afraid on your first. Because surely, that is the last time that you will be afraid, until you make your first again- first days and first rides.

 

“Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists. It is real. It is possible. It is yours. “**

 

 

*Snow Patrol-Chasing cars

**One tree hill Chad Michael Murray’s Voice over of Ayn Rand’s quote

 

 

 

 


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narina013 wrote on Jun 13
DRAMA.
Love you twin!!
Lapit na birthday a!!
biboyjose wrote on Jun 13
DRAMA.
Love you twin!!
Lapit na birthday a!!
Twin! >:D<

Syempre college na eh.
Sorry I missed out on your birthday. =P
Kwentuhan tayo minsan. ;)
superbecca wrote on Jun 14
Daaaym. You write really well, Biboy. :)
raphaellau wrote on Jun 14
Me:

HIGH SCHOOL: Wheelbarrow. :D

COLLEGE: The time that I hated myself the most for not bringing the abominable form 5, which eventually turned into a rag due to the falling rain.

Di ka nanaman nag basket, langya. D:
biboyjose wrote on Jun 14
Daaaym. You write really well, Biboy. :)
Really? I rarely get compliments like that. =P

Thanks becca! :D
biboyjose wrote on Jun 14
Me:

HIGH SCHOOL: Wheelbarrow. :D

COLLEGE: The time that I hated myself the most for not bringing the abominable form 5, which eventually turned into a rag due to the falling rain.

Di ka nanaman nag basket, langya. D:
HIGH SCHOOL: I was riding the wheelbarrow and someone was 'maneuvering' it. =P

COLLEGE: A series of inevitable events that reminded me of how hard it is to live a life once you've been introduced to fallacies.

Nasa funeral ako grabe. :))
raphaellau wrote on Jun 14
Kanina meron. :)) Hoy ang dami kong malalang kwento. :))

COLLEGE: Newfound friends because of poorsem.
biboyjose wrote on Jun 14
Kanina meron. :)) Hoy ang dami kong malalang kwento. :))

COLLEGE: Newfound friends because of poorsem.
Game game!


COLLEGE: I missed my friends because of orsem. yun ohhhh :))
o16zeitgeist wrote on Jun 14
*Snow Patrol-Chasing cars
fave song ko at the moment.

you know, i never fully realized how insightful you could be... hehe.
biboyjose wrote on Jun 14
fave song ko at the moment.

you know, i never fully realized how insightful you could be... hehe.
That's the product of enjoying long walks alone and reflecting alone in my breaks. (LOL, i actually sound like jesuit =P )
raphaellau wrote on Jun 14
Cause you dont have someone to spend your breaks with? Aww. :(( Lipat kang UP. HAHAHAH.
abifaith wrote on Jun 14
very well said... haha nkinig ka nga nung kasangga.. =p
biboyjose wrote on Jun 15
Cause you dont have someone to spend your breaks with? Aww. :(( Lipat kang UP. HAHAHAH.
Yeah wala may gusto. joke haha :))

awww. factor :(
biboyjose wrote on Jun 15
very well said... haha nkinig ka nga nung kasangga.. =p
Hey abi! Obvious ba? Edi malamang ikaw din. :D
raphaellau wrote on Jun 15
Yeah wala may gusto. joke haha :))

awww. factor :(
Ano? Lipat na. :)) Kahit may class ako, iiwanan ko para masamahan ka sa breaks mo. Langya ang gay. :))
zacharyseth05 wrote on Jun 15
CBF! :)) dapat inisa isa mo yung memories mo nung hs eh! :))
biboyjose wrote on Jun 15
Ano? Lipat na. :)) Kahit may class ako, iiwanan ko para masamahan ka sa breaks mo. Langya ang gay. :))
Haha. Ang dami mong dinaig sa hirit na yan ah. =p
biboyjose wrote on Jun 15
CBF! :)) dapat inisa isa mo yung memories mo nung hs eh! :))
CBF ka dyan. wala ngang marka ng pagka cbf dyan eh. kung inisa-isa ko yung sa hs sobrang wala nang magbabasa nun sa haba ng entry. haha
killingpaoskie wrote on Jun 20
I like this entry.
biboyjose wrote on Jun 20
I like this entry.
Unlikely. haha =P
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